Aug 23th 2017
My mind started to breaking down, even the easiest shit couldn't be explained. All words that came out pointlessly like a broken crown, maybe i'm just to scared.
Honestly,
I hate looking at my phone, i knew shit will turned out badly. I don't believed in luck, but why am i feel so unlucky. maybe for the path i chose? or maybe ALLAH meant to give something greater.
Lets not talk about the future nor past,
Every possibilities leads me to unhappy condition of enviroment and situation. felt like i LOST my wife, sons, family, wealth, respect and title. me myself couldn't strengthen my self-up. YES, i still believed that this shit im feeling will pass soon without i even realize it
If i writing up about what i have or would or may LOST,
It will be endless blog.
Even games couldn't bring me joy,
The joy that i can depend on are while with both of my son, Shakur & Malik,
About their eyes,
I could feel that they really want me to be there, "The looks of Appreciation" priceless. I couldn't get that expression with my wife.
Updating my life progression,
Was Studying back in INTI doing Dip. Civil Engineering, Dropped out on 4th Sem.
then, There're period of me hanging around my friends "The BX". Then comes my marriage and Shakur, I really was not ready that time, Yeah Fatin bombard the topic quite alot. Then My Father came into the picture SUDDENLY, and there're "U'karaoke" Period. Spending my time maybe Karaoke Lyric, MIDI, and sound, and most of the time i was playing RAN with my half brother Ridzwan. Met Uncle Rosman for the 1st time on that period. Then the Monopole Period, Then WtE Period, Quite a period for WtE, Then...